I'm not used to...

Maybe am used to in being alone,

Maybe am used to in pretending strong,

Maybe am used to being by myself,

Used to being betray..

Used to being cold..

Used to being ungrateful..

These kind of used to makes me tired...

But am never used to being help,

Never used to being protect,

Never used to being supported,

Never used to being sweet or cute,

Never used to being kind,

Never used to being loved,

I just not used to being rely or dependent on someone...

and never dare to think of it...

People are fake in many ways..

It scares me somehow...

It makes me never want to be closed with them...

I always have a wall between people..

And never been breaks by anyone..

This walls defense me from many things..

Maybe am just selfish..

But the fear in me never decrease..

I hardly trust anyone... or love anyone..

Maybe am just useless...

I hope I can always keep myself from that kind of world..

Never wanted to involve my self in it...

Everything scares me of..

The care,

The love,

The trust,

Believing,

Friendship,

The bond,

The hatred,

The pain,

The sorrows,

They can easily being crush just in a second...

Nothings is forever and nothing can ever last long... I believe..

Things fade,

Fade away just like this, nothing can be hold still..nothing is strong...

Even me my self are weak...